about my mind not my heart

 When your body is tired and sleepy but your body refuses to fall asleep, that's the most annoying thing. 

 He didn't destroy me, but instead made me realize that I was too valuable to be thrown away in the wrong place.

 I just got out of an experience that almost trapped me, almost endangered me if I wasn't aware, but from this experience I also gained valuable experience.

 It sounded like something sweet, but it turned out to be a trap that would make it hard for me to get out of if I didn't escape.

 When separated it looks ordinary and very pure but it turns out to be very clear when you put it all together.

 I'm learning Japanese, I don't want to rush into memorizing hundreds of kanji, I want to learn Japanese not to pass the JLPT but I really want to be able to speak Japanese.

 Luckily I left him early and realized early on that his behavior showed the seeds of patriarchy.

 Who would have thought it would only take me seven days to get used to being without him? I thought it would take months, but it turned out to be so easy.

 Take your mind with you wherever and whenever, even when you are falling in love, falling in love does not mean you have to let go of your mind.

 I've heard that women are stupid when they fall in love, but I will prove that not all women are like that, and that woman is me. 

 Even though I wasn't with him for long, exchanging stories together, chatting every day, keeping in touch with each other, it was very difficult for him to leave my mind and heart. Maybe it's not a matter of how long but it depends on the depth and emotional connection I have with him.

 I thought I regretted making this decision because I felt a little lonely but it turns out that was normal, and it doesn't mean I regret my decision, because letting go of and forgetting habits certainly takes a long time, not just one or a few days.

 Coming back after a full day and greeting like nothing happened was great.

 I didn't lose anything, he lost me, In fact, I am free from the burden of feelings and emotions. I am free!!

 I don't know, I'm in a bad mood.

 Today I thought about things that were very far away, I thought it was an exaggeration but it wasn't, In fact, it would be good if you think about it now. Don't get trapped in a relationship that is only based on temporary emotions when in fact there are more inequalities when it comes to the relationship.

 I have principles, I have control, my time is very valuable, I don't like being left hanging, and I don't want to be stuck and not make progress. I will be able to get there whenever as long as there is certainty

 Today I almost think that the things that should be thought about are excessive, I thought it was not important but it turned out to be very important and it is not an exaggeration if I think about it.

 I'm sure I don't have daddy issues, I have a f ather and his role is there too, but strangely enough, when I accidentally met someone who might be the same age as my father, I felt normal and had no intention of ending it and still wanted to continue it.

 I made a mistake by doubting him obviously he proved it was true but I still made a mistake by doubting him

 It was just a small thing but it was so disturbing to think about even though he did so many other big things.

 I sent him a song and he said that it was the only song that made him feel close to me, even though there was clearly distance and time separating us.

 He always feels like he's bothering me, even though it's clear that if I consider someone important I will willingly sacrifice all my time for that person, for that reason he never really bothered me.

 If other people would think I'm too small or skinny, he thinks I'm adorable, he's just different.

 His words today filled my head I just want to see something from him, but he said it's better not to know because I'll be disappointed, but when the time comes everything will be visible, right? And why should I be disappointed with something that has been like that for a long time.

 I don't know why, even though we are kilometers apart, and only communicate via chat messages.But strangely, every time he asked in a tone that sounded firm and demanded an answer, I felt intimidated.

 In my opinion, when someone experiences stress, the visible characteristic is not only getting thinner, but there are also those who actually get bigger, and experience facial swelling so that it forms a moon face, the face swells due to the accumulation of the hormone cortisol, one of the characteristics of a person who is stressed is also lack of concentration. Well, this is where exercise is important, exercise is not only for physical health, but also related to mental and intellectual

 Small things can make you hesitate, let alone big things and things we don't know yet, but if you're comfortable, just continue, right?

 One thing I know about him, he is probably old, most likely from a different generation than me, but that's not a problem for me, in fact it's good.

 The most profound words I got from him today were "our beliefs may differ but the act of praying is the same" it is so deep that I find it difficult to explain it in words.